In a divine sort of sinking
I devote myself to time
Let the hours collect
on my hands, my face,
my wrists.
let it pull apart
the weaving I have done
unknit itself into fractures
like the splintered remnants
of a dream.
I am forgetting things.
Lost in some other
flow of birth patterns,
the rippling spells
of the universe.
I lose my way,
my direction,
myself–
often ending up on
street corners and
in buildings
not knowing how I got there.
I try to explain this
(an apology)
when I lose my way
taking us forty-five minutes
in the wrong direction
speeding down the 295
my mind caught up on pine trees,
on pictures,
on altocumulus, cirrus, stratus.
I offer that perhaps I am negligent,
unattentive?
I don’t say there is
this sensation
like a knot in me
that I am being pulled into
a different world
and only slightly
a part of this one.